kill me.
SHUCKS. cut my hair today. damn its ugly. didnt know that the lady cut my back till its so short. i think i look more like a girl now. felt so disgusted everytime i saw my own reflection. its the first time i hate myself so much. masochist =X.

YES.
Sparky's gonna be on the HRSS calender!! cant wait to see how is it gonna turn out. but funny thing is, the people of HRSS thinks i'm showing off that Sparky's on it. ?!?!?! what's there to show off in the first place? i know they didnt mean it but seriously, what's there to show off?? and guys, please feel free to go down on 1st Oct to Youth Park cos there's going to be a HRSS event there. please support them by getting some stuffs like postcards, rabbit toys, posters and if possible, adopt a rabbit!!

pretty please with a cherry on top??

*reaching for my cup of milk.
slurps. hmm. i loOve milk. i think i'm OBSESSED with it. have to drink it at least once everyday. and i like to make this "milk moustache" and pretend i'm shooting the "got milk?" ad cos' only famous people got to do that. yes, that's me =)). I WANT FAME!!

thursday.
enjoyed training on that day. got to trash all those trashy people. damn. was so pissed with one of the player. she literally said to her opponents*who are her friends too, that they'll meet in finals, that is if they beat us. but hell WE BEAT THEM!! every single one of them. now i think we are ready for the carnival*feels proud. and i think i sprain my back. OLD MAN =((.

friday.
WORKING. damn am i tired that day. got to shave some of the dogs and do basic also. but was so happy that day. dont know why =)).

saturday.
chinatown. not my place to be but accompany my mum, my aunt and Jocie. was so pissed with the weather. HOT!! gotta settle for ice cream at Mac's. but that place was B-O-R-I-N-G for people our age*duh~. the only time i enjoyed was actually trying out different sunglasses in the shopping mall with Jocie and during Mac's. notice that both happened in air-conditioned place??

fun!
today's work was awfully fun. only von, ai chin and me. though its only the 3 of us, i think we enjoyed every moment. we crapped like nobody's business and hell was there not many customer =)). tried to "hack" the useless washing machine. it was spitting foam out and only limit to a number of towels. little number of towels that is. Huixian(Safari), if you're reading this, you look good in that uniform!!*rolls eye. BAH. what the fish. i actually summarise events for the past few days in this single blog.

i couldnt say i'm feeling good.
cos' i tried not to think of bad thoughts.
i'm not dumb.

yesterday night.
was hogging onto the phone talking to Faith and Jane. was super interesting cos' its been quite awhile since we've last chat. throughout the conference, we're jus crapping and crapping and MORE CRAPPING. i think this is what you call true friends lahh. you know, you can talk everything or anything under the sun*for this case, its under the stars lahh =x. k. see? crap. i think my blog jus became one of my friend ;)).

playing in the box:: Ghetto Gospel.

after Jane hung up, Faith and i had some serious talk. "how do you define love?" well, i think its something that jus comes, develops and goes. its something you must understand and be prepared when you pick it up. jus like your pet. you kept it for years and developed some feelings with it. then, you'll felt as if you can connect with it though it cant talk. when it moves on, you'll felt a deep stab into your heart. see? it jus comes, develops and goes.

THE TROUBLE WITH LOVE IS.

FUCKED UP.
DON'T ASK.

gees.
i was flipping through the papers today and realised that one of my school-mate had passed away. he went out fishing with his uncle when it happened. i was like reading the sub-heading of the papers when i saw his name. and at first, i was thinking "could it be him?" but then you know, you wouldn't think that such shitty stuffs would happen right? but damn was i wrong. i flipped to the next page and there his photo was.

super shocked.

its like though he wasn't close to me, but we do greet each other when we saw the other on the streets. and what's actually "scary" was that you would think he's just this friend of yours, say "hi" on the streets and that's it. but you wouldn't think that stuffs like this could had happened to him. and when it happened, you would think "oh gosh, why him?". i still couldnt believe it and felt sad cos' he's this happy-go-lucky kinda guy with no worries.

shocking day.

alright, let's set this aside for a moment. and besides this, i was also shocked to see that Felicity Huffman had won the Best Comedy Actress Award. not that i wasn't cheering for her, but i thought it was gonna be Teri Hatcher since even the papers had predicted her to win. oh what the heck, still it belongs to Desperate Housewives eh? oh and i'm happy that Lost got the Best Drama Series Award*or something lahh. partly because i didnt know the other nominations well =x and i do catch the show once in awhile*got kinda tired of guessing what monster it is.

MAY GOD BLESS ISKANDAR.
YOU'LL ALWAYS BE REMEMBERED.
PEACE BRO.

thinking.
how long is it since i last post? VERY LONG =x. but heyy, its been the same thing day after day EVERYDAY. damn. hate it. oh and i returned the digi cam to Peiling. no taking of photos anymore!! HOW BAD CAN THIS LIFE BE?!?! its so sucky lahh.

surprised.
by how this person i thought to be not-so-close to me but yet we have so many stuffs to talk about. and we haven meet up for quite awhile! but it was cool lahh =)). and yesterday's trg was great. ran LOADS. and i mean LOADS. its like we haven trained like this for quite sometime and ouch, my toe hurts, YET AGAIN =P. i should have wore my lucky socks. TWINKLE TOES!! and i seriously need a new pair of track shoes. i tore my previous one!! see? i train HARD.

NIKE FREE. wait for me.

and freaking Chihuahua. bit me when i'm trimming its nails. especially when i didnt bleed her. oh and today's journey back was a horror from hell. this guy sitting beside me stink like fuck! i thought i should be the stinky one cos i clean poo and pee during work!! i also gotta bathe stinky dogs and they always wet me like pee. but i met my opponent. he smelled like those sweaty bastards after work. worst still, he's wearing this long sleeve, thick material kinda top. i think he's top absorb all his sweat causing a stench frm him. i was also wondering whether did he wash that top. well, he might use it as a sweater or something*eEwww. remind me not.

bring a deodorant mann.
a guy still needs to look after his image after all.

uh huh.
bigg stinko.

ALL IN.
say after me Huixian(YSS), MI CHENG LIAN!! ok. lame. its adapted frm this show when we're in secondary skoo'. it was until today when we remembered. laughed like nobody's business. and finally, we trained for the tournament!! it was good work-out today lahh. all the running and drills*not much drills thou =X. but yea, jus wanna make it a fun one. cos it has been quite sometime since we last trained.

i realised something.

of all people i knew, i trusted some. those that i think are genuine enough to be my frens. i won't mention names. but some of these people i trusted, they disappoint me damn bad. REAL BAD. sighs. i thought i saw something in them, something good, but man was i wrong. BAM!! NEXT!!

no wonder they say.

trust a few, fear the rest.
*its frm X Men lahh =X.

CHOMPS.
having dinner right now. was super busy the whole of today. woke up at 8am for skoo'. then rushed down to Simei for work at 1130am. worked till 7pm and took the usual long bus ride home. the bus ride's like never-ending. i felt like i've slept for one whole night and it's still on the highway. and i think i stink like shit. having to bathe 4 dogs when one's a golden retriever. and he wet me like pee.

damn it.

secrets have been hiding frm me but i don't give a damn now. i mean i just wanna be me, do the things i like and why worry abt small shit stuffs like these? it will jus add on the stress given to me in skoo'.*reminds me of what Huixian asked me "why are you so carefree?". well, you got your answer now ;)).

"guy or girl?"

everyone in Plasma seems to ask me this qn. aint it obvious?? PEOPLE, GET YOUR EYES CHECK!! i just got long hair and you think i'm a girl? gees, so guys who got moustaches are your dad*adapted frm Huixian. but then, it only happens at Plasma. so i guess its the lighthing lahh.

perhaps i should jus snip off my ends.
its really long.
and i'm plain lazy to style it.

so its not gonna be very short either =)).

BAH.
the train journey back. "next stop jurong east interchange". naughty von. naughty xian. naughty me. naughty us. even the uncle in front was so "shy"*or should i say HORNY =xX. well, we were talking about the "birds and the bees" yesterday when von did the*ahem action and movement. xian still craves for food though she said she wanna save $$. i buy you orange next time k =))?

tick tock tick tock.

times flies eh? Sparky's turning a good'ol 4 years next year, i worked closed to half a year at Simei and i'm turning 18 on the next 31st March!! cant wait to see how next year turn out. hope its a good one!!

i want my birthday cake.
cheesecake that its.

pamper me =)).

angelina jolie's lips. nice =)).

sunday morning.

early morning i should say. haven updated my blog for quite awhile. so here i am =)). friday was great. went back to skoo' to visit my ex-teachs though teacher's day's on thurs =X. had a long great chat with ms ng and loads of secrets revealed from Huixian*its YSS's Huixian. quick! beg me to spill out the secrets to you guys =xX. then met up with the groomers for a night-out at Plasma. was planning to go for a movie actually but none of us could decide what to watch. and the consequences, its to go Plasma*dang~.

we gotta save $$ guys.

no cab. no frequent night-outs. no fancy feasts. no hardcore liqour. no nothing guys!! its all about $$ now*but i love the cheesecake though. slurps. now sending photos to von. we took alot at Plasma. 46 in total. *gees. oh and von, thanks for the Courts voucher!! lalala. Zen Neeon, here i come!! Yippy =))

gotta work tmr.
and i'm beat.
*i love my pillow =)).